Just my luck

 Meeting in Didcot

My lady friend in Oxfordshire

Svitlana

It wouldn't suprise me if the release of the stress I have been under for the most of the last year causes a mental breakdown. The only good thing about the last 10 months, is being able to chat online with my friend, Svitlana, in Didcot, Oxfordshire. Without the help of Svitlana, I am certain, I would have hit a deep depression, so deep I doubt I would have recovered.

Now things are beginning to look a little brighter 🤞. I am hoping our chats can become more than only a quick hello

There are times when I question my sanity

 Mental Health Concerns

Pamela Olsted

A strange dynamic

I'd be telling lies if I said the last year has been less than horrorific for me, though the the last two months of knowing Svitlana took some of the nastiness away.

In November of 2026, I was approached by a person calling themselves Clara Kent, who "claimed" to live in Bristol.Her name is Pamela Olsted.From the outset, our online chat appeared strained, she would agree with what i was saying, but never continue the conversation. Not long after we began, I had the impression she wasn't in the UK, but I kept the link, hoping she'd prove me wrong, which she didn't. She lives in Pennsylvania in the USA.

Two months ago, I cut ties with her, a few weeks later her sister contacted me to say Pamela was in hospital, and hadn't eaten for weeks. The sister, then said she would pay off the debt Pamela owed me. From the outset, I considered this another scam. After all, her sister had lied to me for months, why would I believe her?

Two months of stress later, I am still waiting for my refund, and I doubt it will come

Klondike Annie

 Getting over Pamela Olsted

What do I seek?

Mae West

This weekend will hopefully end my connection with scammer Pamela Olsted. Her sister "claims" to be willing to clear the debt I am owed.

While the ammount is no gold rush, it will relieve my mental health strain after 8 months of worry.

I can't say I will miss Pamela, we never met, and I'd had the feeling she was lying for months, I gave her many opportunities to prove me wrong.

The debt clearance will make it a lot easier for me to chat to, and meet my lady friend, in Didcot, Oxfordshire.

Scary Times

Tomorrow's World

No money for food

Sister Act

In the last week, my food shortage has become a major issue for my health. The cash shortage caused by sending Pamela Olsted money, means I have nothing to eat for several days a month, a few moments ago, I almost collapsed.

I am hoping this situation will clear soon as her sister "claims" to be willing to send the money I am owed, if this happens my mental health will improve.

Mind Games

 Mental Health Issues

Mental Health

Each dawn I die

I have suffered from memory loss for years, from putting things down, and forgetting where I left them to blackouts were I miss minutes.

It has got worse since my wife passed away, and the strain caused by knowing scammer Pamela Olsted for several months made things far worse.

I have the feeling her sister is going to attempt to get me to pay her a lot to get my £3,000 repaid, but it isn't going to work this time. I can't afford the money as I live on less than a meal every three days.

If it wasn't for my beautiful friend, Svitlana, in Oxfordshire, I am sure my mental health would have collapsed.

Unfortunately, the after-effect of Pamela, and her sister is I have grown wary of Svitlana, she says she misses me, but though I asked her to leave the dating app we use, she doesn't want to.

I may be doing what I am known for - overthinking - I can't help myself. Svitlana is an attractive lady on a dating app, I can't help thinking she has other male companions.

Writing is going to be Painful for me

 A mental strain

A Physical Strain

The mental strain of writing, for me, is to write a story, and to think nobody will read it. This is a great block to me as a writer. The only good thing about wriitng, is it gives me an escape from thinking about the recent death of my wife.

The physical strain is that I have constant muscle pains in my right shoulder, and any movement send daggers of pain through my left arm