Advent Calenders

 Happy Birthday

October 18th

My birthday present

I get amused by people selling Advent Calenders around my birthday, in mid-October, but to start selling them in September is ridiculous, I appreciate cat calenders are a huge selling point, but really, Advent Calenders in September?

The Monkey on my back

 Will we meet?

2026

                                          Have I missed chatting to Pamela aka Clara?

If you haven't heard the quote "I have a monkey on my back," it means having something niggling at you all the time, in my case the SCAMMER, Pamela Olsted, who owes me £3,000. I thought I was helping a lady who wished to have a relationship with me, "no fool like an old fool."

IF, BIG if, all goes well, I should get my money this week as her sister has said she'll pay me.

I can't say I missed the chats we had, I was doing the chatting, and PO was only agreeing with me.

Hopefully, once this mess is cleared, I can progress with meeting my friend in Didcot.

2026 was a bust

 The Year of Hell

Cash Shortage

Pamela Olsted

As the final quarter of 2026 approaches, I can say this year has been another year of hell for me. I suffered a cash shortage caused by knowing a scammer called Pamela Olsted, who "claimed" to live not far from me in Bristol. We began an online chat in November 2025, and I ended it in June 2026, I think she hoped for it to end in August, as her birthday is in July.

The only good thing that came out of knowing her is I found ladies do find me attractive, as I added my profile to two dating apps.

The race is on

Meeting Svitlana

Oxfordshire

Svitlana

The time to meet my lady friend in Oxfordshire is approaching, she has a holiday booked to return to the Ukraine this month. On her return, I am hoping to meet her by my birthday in mid-October.

Svitlana did mention a sleepover, this would benefit us in many ways. We wouldn't need worry about me catching the train back to Bristol from Didcot on the same day.

It would also give us more time to get to know each other, though she suggested the idea, I said we should meet a few times, to see if we get on as well in peson as we do online

Issues of Trust

My birthday present

The Lady's Choice

An evening with Svitlana

The perfect gift for my birthday would be to be invited to sleep-over with my friend, Svitlana, in Didcot, Oxfordshire.

I won't push my idea, it is the lady's choice to ask, Things hinge on whether we meet, and how we get on, we got on well online this month. I am prepared for not to turn up, it would be a shame, yet the day won't be wasted.

Svitlana knows what happens is at her request, that includes if we have sex

Actions speak Louder than Words

A lady who knows what she wants

August Deadline

An evening with Svitlana

My friend in Oxfordshire, Svitlana, has made her intentions about how she wishes our relationship to move, clear to me. 

She had clear intentions of having sex with me from our first online chat.

I find it arousing that she is so open about her desires, as I get aroused knowing I have aroused the lady; I am about giving, not taking, which is probably why ladies feel safe chattign to me online.

I built my popular appeal on my personality, not my physical appearance.

I hope I am able to fulfil my friend's wishes.

An evening with Svitlana

 My birthday present

                                                Film Noir evenings

Meeting Svitlana

The ideal birthday present for me, would be a sleepover with my friend, Svitlana, she has suggested it, not at my request. As Svitlana mentioned the subject, it is her choice to ask. I will not raise the subject again, if she raises the subject we can discuss how to go forward. I will be happy to spend the day with her, and return to Bristol with happy memories. All this is a long way off, as my birthday isn't until October

24 hours

 We have to gel

Svitlana's wish

My birthday present

It took only 24 hours for me to change my mind, and realise ladies do find me attractive.

I may have several mature ladies looming for a date with me, but I have only one lady in mind, my friend, Svitlana, in Oxfordshire.

Even though we get on well online, the real matter is can we gel when we meet in person?

I think we'll have no major issues, we have discussed several things we wish to do, and made joint decisions.

Depression

 Depression confusion

Svitlana's Dedication

Will we meet?

My state of depression has caused me to doubt if my friend, Svitlana, plans to meet me in Didcot. She is reluctant to leave the chat room we chat on, and at times seems to be slightly off-key when chatting, as if she is not totally okay with meeting me.

It probably is a mix of self-doubt, and depression over my cash shortage, who knows, we may have a wonderful relationship ahead.